shamless self pity

opening and shutting

the shut shutters

of my mind

eurthymic rhythm so

not eurthymic

and miss world

drowning

in

the cacophany

smile and wave

and flip a page

and die and die

another day

impressed by your brevity

a thousand years standing is ye

and a thousand years dead

is me

hopeless shadows

filling the void

fulfilling the absymal lucidity

that I never really was

and those who stay there

do not speak

they just circulate

you and me

and the poison frog your poision's choosing

shoot me with an arrow

for there is nothing left

too many slices cut

and evenly distributed

to ravenous beasts

and the like

of all who have sucked from me

that which can't be sucked

wasting the wasted

killing the dying

and the catalyst

for that which

can never

be named

except

during moments

of brevity

oh so long

ago

and miles

miles

away