fill the void
with hollow sound
cut the noise
to higher ground
open black
below the mound
misery
all soul did shone
flailing new
the tangled limbs
four against
the monkey tin
and paling
proper print
grin
only me
within it lied

out of reason
out of
touch
out of
reason
touch
sigh away
just sigh away
hhmph
sigh away
just
hhmph

fill the void
with hollow sound
cut the noise
to higher ground
open black
below the mound
misery
all soul did shone
flailing now
the tangled limbs
four against
the monkey tin
and paling of
proper print grin
only me
within it lied

saying I
why
the black line
on a bad time
malificent's
multiple
mongers
network down
I dialed up
to you
until
near far
approaching death
and all those
haunting ghosts
but
no translucence
unto you
black's fading
another life
I's born
into
and still I sit
and lie and
call love love
and melting up unto
the very sight
and still I could not see
can not
and blind
is sorry

nothing

she
could do nothing
but wait
for her pulsing veins
to pump blood
over
the vastest of
expanes.
but not before
her pulsing veins
pumped blood
over
the smallest of
expanses.

nameless .10

Twisted lines

Those lines we twist

and turn into

our boundaries

cross

and Hell

breaks loose

like the twisted line

your strings

doth turn into

pulled by them

and you

twisting

pulling

until

crash into

what once thought

was you

erupt

then turn

into

what gets

the better

every time

damn twisted line

not lax

not straight

that makes

me turn into

Hell broken loose

nameless .08

Inescapeable plan

the dark path waits

to be treaded on

so uncarefully again

in the distance

i see it

my chance for another life

as far away from this one

as andromena from milky way

twitch too often

ignore the smoke

the haze that fogs

all doubt and

preteen instances of

insecurity

some never grow

the bonsai trees

society's

so redwood trees

can plentifully populate

the smaller forest

shining white

that ill smile you wore

fashioned by

lasers

smooth faces

fashioned by

scalpels

the poor slobs

beg on the streets

to be

as beautiful as you

when you're thirteen

and you don't eat

she better be

as beautiful as you

inescapable plan

for all of us to be

so fucking

perfectly imperfect

perfect bodies

imperfect minds

nevermind the monster

nevermind the vomit

just be yourself

as long as its not

fat and ugly

i wont do it

i will not walk the path

that claimed so many casualties

of image's destruction

but the other life

so far away

the path is laid before my feet

and that's where they'll stay

so I can perish

at the cost of image

as my predecessors did

a not so lofty bargain

for the pain

that begins

with your first step

on the dark path

shamless self pity

opening and shutting

the shut shutters

of my mind

eurthymic rhythm so

not eurthymic

and miss world

drowning

in

the cacophany

smile and wave

and flip a page

and die and die

another day

impressed by your brevity

a thousand years standing is ye

and a thousand years dead

is me

hopeless shadows

filling the void

fulfilling the absymal lucidity

that I never really was

and those who stay there

do not speak

they just circulate

you and me

and the poison frog your poision's choosing

shoot me with an arrow

for there is nothing left

too many slices cut

and evenly distributed

to ravenous beasts

and the like

of all who have sucked from me

that which can't be sucked

wasting the wasted

killing the dying

and the catalyst

for that which

can never

be named

except

during moments

of brevity

oh so long

ago

and miles

miles

away

to live

Nothing ever changes

in the house of broken dreams.

The door's been black

for a long time now,

And it's all

as it seems.

Twenty-one years,

not counting it,

all odds against,

I don't know why.

Unearthly

Earthbound

Existance,

filled with

Nothing,

no work,

no play,

just idle days.

Make a plan,

Make a plan,

Maybe we'll suceed,

Or fail

Fail

Fail

Fail,

my tails spinning

the same circle

As so long

Ago.

Let it show,

Let it Show,

and then

they go,

till there is

no one left

to share with

this broken

Dream,

And no money

Never any

And if you'd

Work hard

to get some

than it wouldn't be

as it seemed.

But all is crumbling

around me

Except the

Insurmountable

Surmountable

Burdens

that blind the eyes

of those who believe

that just because

they were

Maligned

they don't

deserve

to live.

Believe

Why do we
refuse to believe
What we need

Dawn's a dusky shadow
but
Hope is lost
In the
Darkness
Many days
For it
We wept

Want
Adjacent to our shadow
A small one
So she can live
A different life
Walk in stride
Have prodigious
talent
Paint rainbows
In the
Overcast
So not
To make
Her gray

You want
her to
Believe
But there is
No
Small
Shadow.
Space
Adjacent
is vacant

But even if
The row
was filled
small shadows
Your heart
Would still
be vacant
Because
you don't
Believe

crash metal crash

metal on metal
collide
spin cylindrical tools
ancient yet new
archaic yet modern
mind
my mind spun
with them
and with them
my mind did collide
as they collided
with mine
crashing
you wish to be smashed into
the pieces
that you are
hold together
tell them
unify body
and mind
but all the time
in between
okay
and
insanity
the pills
perpendicular
to your
stomachwall
as it crashes into
your large intestine
and collides with
your seratonin
will you ever find
your
mind
or will you
crash
into
pieces
and collide
never to unify
again

abcd

abcd

memory's fading

of a time

we weren't classified.

abcd

which one is

the one

I hate the most

abcd

which is the one

that gets replaced

the d by a

or d by d?

abcd

which is the one

with no more as

bs

cs

and/or

the ds

abcd

which is the one

scanning the sunset

for the d if they're a

and the b if they're c

nameless .07

love

bright simple

shining star

of streetlight

filled and fulfilled

hole in heart

and mind

with utter complexities

of itself

and the

fulfilling

so that

no

self-recognition

and

singing to streetlights

a normality

when in fact

you were

in love

-11/8/06-

This is NOT a Monkey Poem

it's not alright
dance
monkey
dance
it's not alright
be prim
monkey
be prim
it's not alright
lay down
monkey
lay down
it's not alright
bruise
monkey
bruise
it's not alright
choke
monkey
choke
it's not alright
die
monkey
die
it's not

-11/7/06-

nameless .06

not just immigrants

suburban white

deluded

section thereof

filled with

eviction notices

and carboard boxes

single income house

that's not a home

and the wine

oh the wine's poison

feasted upon

by those who believe

just because they were

maligned

walked this path before

snorted that line before

had this breakdown before

and still

it can't be visualized

by those who lack

the knowledge

that it is all a game

and that which ails you now

will not do so in the future

than why am i in pain

at the news

that we're out again

at the news

that we can't make ends meat

at the news

that once again

it's been confirmed

this house is not a home

any semblence of one

for me and them

left a long time ago

in its place

a crappy old shack

whose main objective

is to let us down

and who will complete it

many times over

before death strangles

the life out of

us

-10/23/06-

nameless .05

path of darkness

path of light

the v

of self destruction

some walk darkness

some walk light

to lightdarkness all aspire

leaned left

pulled out right

living left's legacy

destruction's

creation

sit still

smile

be pretty

pretty fucking vacant

but not too happy

sad

smart

slut

virgin

the scales not tipped

perfect

oh if you could read

my

understand

but just

another insect

no pretty

no white

no happy

leaned left

and pulled out right

he pulled out,

right

alright

just the living

legacy

of life's

dark

destruction

nameless .03

Twisted lines

Those lines we twist

and turn into

our boundaries

cross

and Hell

breaks loose

like the twisted line

your strings

doth turn into

pulled by them

and you

twisting

pulling

until

crash into

what once thought

was you

erupt

then turn

into

what gets

the better

every time

damn twisted line

not lax

not straight

that makes

me turn into

Hell broken loose

nameless .02

corner turning

confiscated your heart

health dimished

and family torn into the shred

deeper inside

hiding from the tearer

hiding from the bearer

won't be torn into

like you

no

walked in your footsteps

never really happy

bolting from the scene

so as not to scream

and then again

and again the shredder

and again

the heartache

and again

the vacant room

after womb

many miles walked to

away from you

my bargain

your suffering

as the shredder

and you

split

into

lessof

I sit and wait
For a home
Purgatorial antiparadise
No glass-half-full shit
Feeling in my wrists
Where you can really feel things
Where your strength does lie
Now now
Mine has diminished
And all you want is to suffocate
Because the pain is less than
That which you have to
Endure
Greener grass
You think you'll find
1000 miles away
But youre paralyzed
And there's no ride
So all you do
Is wait
You sit and wait
And break
And break
You clean up their pieces
too
And you want so bad
to fade
But you realized
It's not just you
And you dream and dream
For a beautiful aesthethe
Of architectural design
A piece of land
White picket fence
American in kind
But then you wake
The dream it fades
Hope fading with it too
Yet all do
Is sit and wait
For a home
for them
And you

countenance

The memory of your face

that I can not remember.

waiting for a time

that we are not

running through the maze

the twists and turns

turn twistedly

eternally.

the memory of your face

that I can not remember

the last time that you wept

through circuts, waves and wires.

the memory of her face

when it was not so scarred

and her smiles

were not plastic

and her feeling

was not pain.

the memory of your faces

when we were all together

and when we did laugh happy

oh what time has erased.

the memory of your face

is all that she has left and

there is nothing more be

cause all else of you

she has

erased

-12/21/05-